For ***** sake am I allowed to speak now also I'm not able to say cuss words right OK dot

so I am very upset very very upset because I just don't want my cat to die I didn't want my mum to die and it's all horrible ways sex really sad and then if you wanna die like I have to charge with my dad son as well my brother sad now with my nephew sadness like why why would she say that like I'm not gonna kill the entire family I just got killed for myself and so ray like so afraid it wouldn't have the power now go easily just take it like a law no lot of pills and then we just cut my beans and go away that's not that bad just because others cannot accept death I mean I have to wait to have the worst death ever like I don't know I'm I'm annoyed living I always end I was happy for awhile and now lead a team TiVo let's say I know nothing right there oh God people I just wanna stop breathing and go somewhere else I wanna be with I wanna be with chiko and I wanna be with mom and I wanna be like I don't know I would like to get to know with my Gran father Russian that most Uruguayan then Russian President ever and then like I don't know I get to know my ancestors and ownership like there's a lot of people died already so I'm just asking you please take me in really good shape to try that I don't want it like how to do it myself I wanna die I really really really really really just wanna die now 'cause it I'm tired too then I will hold today anyway I'm so you good if you just take that will be fun tell me OK just make my start like debris and upset be quiet but I know it's there how much money do I have to take OK then you feel you